Struggling to break through

Im new to this strange yellow substance. I spent a few hours yesterday trying to breakthrough. Hit after hit after hit off a pen and after I gave up on that I switched to an electric dab rig.

I got visuals. I got some inner peace and I’m thankful for that. But I never left the earth behind and entered a new realm.

What am I doing wrong here?

I ripped the pen/rig until my lungs were full. Held it in as long as I could. Then did it again and again and again.

I enjoyed the experience and went into it with an open mind. But I have had more powerful closed eye visuals and emotional lessons from mushrooms in moderate doses.