How can I fix this??

Today is another one of those days where I long for him terribly.

It comes over me like a wave and I drown in it. I know why I shouldn't get in touch. I know it all. Luckily, I had a friend who is married to someone like him, she talked me trough it ..

even though I know why it's over and why I can never go back, I continue to long for him so deeply.

It's been a few months since we broke up, but we did have some contact in between, though he refuses to come my way and apparently I'm not even worth kissing anymore or to share other intimacies, and we were so incredibly intimate I gave him my heart and soul.

After being alone for 15 years, he made me feel everything again that I hadn't felt for a very long time.Well, now he just took that from me, just like that.

I am so incredibly sad...How do I make sure I no longer feel the need to contact him?

How do I fix this in my head, in my heart, and in my soul ??

Help!!!!(Cognitively I know it all, it's going pretty well, but sometimes it overwhelms me in a really terrible way; today I'm drowning in it. 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔)