Any ideas?

I am a stupid teenager so do not judge my ways ok- I understand that my logic is pretty dumb for what I may say, maybe I'll regret it later in life, maybe I'll learn from it or mabey I'm just really stupid. either way do not be the 100th person to tell me to just ask her out and that the worst thing that could happen is her saying no- I AM AWARE OKKK! ( :

NOW TO BUSINESS

I have a crush on this girl I met that is a 12th grade, I am a 10th grade, tbf I am older than 90% of 10th graders, maybe even 98%

I am 17 while most of all others are 16 or 15

I have no clue how old she is but I am not gonna ask lmao 😂

point being I don't think I have a chance whatsoever and don't really fully want a chance for multiple reasons which I will comment below but it's just so much to write that y'all's cooked attention span couldn't handle and I'd rather actually get a response from people instead of them leaving because I write so frickin much srry 🙏

point is, if she does end up wanting me to sign her yearbook or smth along the lines of that I wanted to leave a sign that I do like her for her to maybe realize at some point (idk ok this whole thing is just as dumb to me as for you) but I didn't wanna leave her hanging like I was never interested, I can't tell if she is but IF SHE IS I just didn't wanna make it seem like I didn't even tho I kinda have 😬 but also a way to play it safe so it didn't ruin the half cooked ahh friendship we have while still being able to have it known to her idk just in case we meet in the future... the more I write the more I feel corny, a hypocrite and a dummy but I'm still typing anyways aren't I 😂🤦

i think the reason that is is because I've thrown myself into this "I shouldn't date" or "I need to work on myself before I date again" mentality when I honestly can't tell if I do need that or not and I've been practically abusing my self worth and I'm such a overthinking and self aware person that I am actively realizing how dumb it is and that it needs to stop but also that I think it's not that simple, that it may disappear with time yada yada young teen it's not that deep love...

anyways the photo above is what I would sign/draw

Is 143 in small print good enough... Ik most people don't know what that means in my grade but I fear that it may be more known in her grade and that she'll immediately know what I wrote and I do not want that WHATSOEVER 😭

any 12th graders (yes people below that can respond too) but any y'all know what 143 means orr am I good 🤨