I don't want to think about this.

tw: Suicide mentions.

My mother... she said, and her exact words, "the day you become a ghost is the day I become a ghost.", because we were messing about, asking if I'm okay and if I'm scared/excited to get my bloods done... but I don't wanna think about this. About if I die before her, she's gonna do it herself. I don't like that. I don't want to hurt myself or her, but she's worrying me.