Once I lose weight I'll be okay

i just need to lose weight. i just need to lose weight. i just need to be skinnier. i need to be sooo much skinnier. it's the only thing that gives me a semblance of control over my life. unironically I think I'd be dead otherwise. i need to be skinnier. i need to be skinnier. i need to be skinnier. i need to be thin. i need to feel my bones. i need to be skinnier. i need to be skinnier. nothing in my life is going right so I need to be skinnier. i need to lose weight. i need to starve. there's no point in eating anyways. i need to be skinnier. i need to starve. i need to be thin. i need to be skinnier.