I vow my last 9-5 will be the one I work now.

dude i understand some people dont mind it but I can't work 9 to 5. im genuinely 18 years old and havent experienced it more than a year or so in total but everyday I clock in for work I feel depressed, when im there im depressed, when someone asks me how it was or when my next shift is I just feel agonised.

I know it sounds like one big whine but I just vow that once I finish school and enter college I will never work one again. my doctor for my adhd said id never be able to work one and now I feel I truly understand.

oh, and fuck AI because I want to be a writer and artist and film producer but that almost makes it impossible and such an indefinite market but you know I think I would rather go broke writing what I want to write and people thinking its hot ass then just offing myself after years of a numbless working system like a 9-5. again, some people like it. I never will.

anyway, I vow to not be where I am financially and work-wise in 5 years nor ever again.