Its finally over my mental health is healed thanks to me. Police were called as im not a game but you forgot to see it coming but not surprised I guess you easy to read.

well im 33m and my wife 33 soon to be ex left me the day after my birthday. I finally had enough and snapped, shouted at her for showing every since of a cheater. recorded caught by my own ears and eyes. even in the past if still denied now. I was angry and raised my voice crying and letting my hurt out. she videod me, called me alot that day, took my boy away and called me an abuser. I tried to kill myself 4 times due to the amount I let her get to me that I wasnt worth it, I was a monster and made me admit things that weren't true as I was still in love and was trauma bonded wanting to make things work for me and my boy and her. by the 10th week I seen her game. angry and resentful hurtful digs when I didnt and wont comply to what she wants. played on my mental health instead of letting me heal. used my boy, my insecurities my confined personal issues and stories against me and aired me out to everyone she could. snapped my fb stories, messages and im sure more. opened my router up to get phone to connect and showing up to the house and 99% the balaclava man that was outside yesterday as a shamefully and non scary intimidating show. so I reported her finally as 12 years was enough. I know my worth and im better than whats been given and done to me. I was right to want to leave and was stupid to stay asling as I did. this week I have been healing alot mental health stronger than ever and thankful she didnt come back. I know see she's the person I most feared her mother and more. I burnt my side of the life we had and want to sell quickly and run. im afraid to leave my boy behind but at we have years to try make sure he grows up with both side and he comes out ok. I really wish I could that she is a amazing mother and will always protect our boy which I do believe but for what's happened I have some doubt which will make his personality worsen as he's already timid. she called the police as I haven't left the house and called her out on her lies and that I put up with alot of crap over the years. I admitted I wanted to leave a few times but gave her the better of the doubt but what she left like I regretted now listen to myself. im happy im finally believed by others that I was played as a game, made out to be something im not and this woman who claimed to be sweet and innocent has never kept a promise and was just mean and judgy of everyone as her and her family are better than everyone and will put you down for trying or your not behaving right in their eyes. I had the police back today after being told she phoned them this morning as her mother decided to drive past and funnily freaked when she seen me catch her. they can their game and try intimidate all they want but guess what? only kids play games adults dictate plans and outcomes. my family where all soldiers on my dads side with strategy as the families forge. mothers side of complete overbelievers, law breakers and overhinkers where we can see the Truth and games people hide in. my family wont hurt you unless we are at threat. we know how to love, care and protect. we never hit woman and we protect our females in the family brought up to hurts ourselves if we ever get an incline to hurt someone else. pushed to far we will set up traps and watch out for crumbs that people forget. you didnt get what you wanted and you have now said your coming back as you didnt get the house that you soo desire. I have offered to pay me out and gave soo many chances to work with me but instead you ridicule, sleep around and lie through teeth to act all innocent. you proved who I didnt want you to be but truth was always their and I need to accept that I loved a person that never gave a fuck about me. twisted, angry and calculated i see you fully now. Just know im gonna fight you all the way now. your mother is vile and has taught you well but you forgot who me and family are and we arent people to play with as we read people from miles away. we dont play to win we play to to advantage and know there is no winning in life just the impact of actions are greater in life as that's what makes a pure heart than a competitive holly soul which you seem to bare. im sorry I wasnt enough to save you and show you a loving physical emotional family that forgives, supports and are open with no judging or they are better than anyone else. I tried to be me and accepted you even if it wasnt what I wanted as you were enough in your own way. I stepped multiple times changed and learned for you. never based us on chances and more mindful and true with the option only being you. as your words I was 4 chances which love isn't expectations to be met or a reason to end it its about meeting at the table with whats wanted and agreed on with counter compassion to suite both people. you failed to see my side of all I did and put up with which is miniscule to your reasons of break and choice to say abuser. you knew I was abused by my ex partner burned beaten and used to the point of I was no longer there. thats when you met and molded me, never cared second thought never desired or appreciated. promised but never followed through. a man used until something better. I was weak and needed love and I falsely lied to myself this wouldve got better. you are Laura 2.0 not physical but all the same. I was never the abuser nor will say your victim. this was a lesson to heal properly and stop accepting what people see me as and see me as the strong man I was hiding as I thought being accepted was the same as love and betraying myself to be let true self out. I loved you all the same and you my all, only have done this once and you seen all of me which I will never do again. the day you left me was the last thing you had never seen of me. my worst rock bottom moment raw hurting and abandoned which I believed you would do as you never showed that you were really the one you made me think you were. I promised to never let go even in the worst moments of us it id choose you but you lied which wasnt a surprise as a promise to you was never followed through as I said. forever to you was the idea of us not the good and bad through and through a made up story to justify your decision but again im thankful as it saves me from finding my true to be. I hope you do end up happy and stop your cruel ways. I hope you can leave it be and try treat the next man better than you did me. you are and were my best mistake that showed my love is better and doesn't want to be wasted. I know im worth alot more than was given and I was in it forever. you made me say you deserved more and I wasnt enough but in reality for all its worth im the lucky one and when I said it I was really thinking it for me.

thanks btw for the nickname

powder ranger out and hope you receive.

my morals are all I abide by and respect myself more to heal. only weak and never growing from mistakes and actions individuals will rebound quick in the fear of owning up to themselves for a quick connection and forget they will bring that baggage to the next person they see. you knew my standards and I forgive you tbh as you will see I was not lying or anything you made me out to be. you set me free and know I will never air your life out like you did me. you can gossip and paint me as you will im not out to hurt people as its not In me. im not better than you but better for the I was treated I dont look down on you but I do feel ashamed a little I held you so high who I thought you were and would be. this time I proved Id not step up to your mark as the disrespect abandonment and deceivment showed me your not worth it as it would be another 12 years of being the man who gave everything to be treated and nothing. goodbye 4 chances, good bye a second thought. know I walk away known i was right again and you were always gonna choose the same actions you hypocrite from me. p.s I vant wait to meet your next partner and shake there hand and smile and analyse if he was dumb as me.