M16 and i've never felt more lonely

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i wrote a whole paragraph but i somehow still broke the rules so i'll summarize it.

i 16 now and i hide in bathrooms when its lunchbreak because i am alone. i dont have any friends in highschool and sitting alone at a bench is hell. the worst part is eating lunch. its so f#cking embarrising you dont understand. pretending to look at your phone to seem busy its hell then you look up theres no one. im sitting at a massive rectangular table with like 18 available seats and not a single damn person will even come close. it feels like im radioactive. its gotten to the point where im not even sad about it im just pissed off, angry and upset. am i really that "weird" this has been eating up at me for a while now. btw im not looking for sympathy i just wanna know if anyone relates so i know im not alone