Did I experience ego death(?)

Yesterday I took Psilocybin for my 2nd time and I took more than I expected. Everything was fine and refreshing until it started to slowly wear off. I got off my music just sat in silence alone in my dark room. I got back on my phone and started looking at baby pictures of myself and then I cried uncontrollably at baby pictures of myself because I thought how could I hate her so much. She was so beautiful and she’s not coming back anymore. All I wanted was to be held by someone at that moment but I was alone. I suddenly felt a gentle presence like comforting? I thought it was god because I never had much faith in him but I still looked for him as a way to keep me from feeling lonely. I felt batshit crazy and freaked out because I convinced myself that I could feel gods presence. Then that’s when everything felt too overwhelming. I couldn’t think for myself. I couldn’t feel what I use to feel before. I completely lost myself. I gained completely awareness of everything. Nothing was really as deep as I wanted it to be. Everything that I was hopeful and optimistically saw life for didn’t matter because i suddenly couldn’t feel it that way anymore. I felt so sick and all I wanted was my mom to hold me and tell me that I’m okay but I couldn’t get a hold of her so I had to get through this on my own. I missed when I was before I did this. Now I feel completely uncomfortable with everything. Which i absolutely fucking hate because I used to feel that as a little girl and now I’m feeling it again but this time, it’s like I know for sure that nothing is real. I felt that I chased after something that I was completely wrong about and wasn’t ready for. Now I feel so disconnected. I feel disconnected from being a human being. I miss when I was overwhelmed with my emotions but now I’m just overwhelmed because I can’t feel it anymore. I miss being an emotional and that seek deep connections from everything. I’m scared I’ll never get back to normal.