My emotions are all over the place and I crave nothing more than to be left alone by everyone even close friends and family....is there something wrong with me?

I am 30 pregnant with my first at 10 weeks 5 days. It has been so rough. The constant nausea, migraines, breast pain that brings me to tears, clogged ears the list goes on and on. Even though my boyfriend has been trying his best to be supportive I just do not want to be around him and any intimacy feels almost painful.

Friends and family are all so excited and I am too but as I am high risk for a few reasons I feel like the stress and worry of is my baby okay fills up all of my mental space and no one understands.

My boyfriend's family immediately bought us a crib and car seat and while so grateful for the support I feel so annoyed by it and guilty for it. Everyone keeps wanting to come over and gift me and the baby things and I DESPISE it for some reason but don't want to be ungrateful so I put on a smile. I know so many moms struggle and go without support and I feel evil for just wanting everyone to stop. I just want to get through this first trimester safely before I can even think of anything else. I was looking forward to shopping and researching some of these things myself when I am ready.

I want nothing more than to be left alone right now. To not have to talk to anyone, I am tired of people sending name suggestions, asking how I'm doing I just want to lay in a dark room and stare at a wall.

Are these feelings normal or am I just being brat?