First timer

Hi. Posting for the first time. Pls be nice if you’re planning on commenting. I don’t know where to begin. Im a 41 yo female with a gambling addiction. Been gambling since i was 18yo. Over and over again I tried to quit but the temptation pulls me back. Each time I’m back in I lose more than before. I went to a GA meeting a few years ago and cried in front of strangers. I was so embarrassed I didnt go back.

At first i was only gambling with what i have but now I’m borrowing money from my credit cards and 401k. I have a husband who’s supportive of me in quitting but he doesn’t know the extent of my gambling. I’m determined to quit for my family but the gambling gods keep pulling me back.

I hide it very well because people never suspect someone like me can be addicted to gambling. I come across as naive and innocent but deep down I’m an addict.

Thank you for listening