self hate is the single most evil thing that can corrupt someones mind

its genuinely so evil i cant even begin to explain it,,, it tries to ruin EVERY single good moment u have, it tries to ruin your relationships, it tries to ruin EVERYTHING. it roots itself so deep inside your psyche that you cant even begin trying to let it go without professional help. i hate it so so so much, i dont want it, i dont want to be like this anymore. no one can help me except professionals but i cant even get to those rn,,,,,, its so overwhelmingly evil and i hate it,,, the amount that i hate myself cant even be explained like every compliment i get gets twisted into self hate, every piece of advice i get gets twisted into a way to ruin my life because what the fuck do i know? in my mind im literally worse than shit, worse than dirt, im the lowest part of society

whoooos an edgy idiot,,, whoooos an edgy fatass