What the f was that..

3 months sober and last night i had enough and bought a 4 pack. Drank it. Felt dizzy and nauseous. It was the most underwhelming evening ever!

I drank a bottle of wine in my room each night for 3 years. I’m 22 so I nipped it in the bud and quit on 10th January 26. I love being sober, it’s nice and i have no anxiety, hangovers, dark vibes following me everywhere lol. But last night for some reason I just was so upset and angry with life that i got myself a 4 pack of vodka sodas (I chose that because i knew if i got a bottle of wine i would’ve drank the whole thing) I contemplated drinking them for awhile and then decided fuck it.

I sat on my bed and listened to some lana del ray and 2 hours in i just had a slight dizziness, bloated asf, burping like a truck driver, headache, and starving?

It was NOT WORTH IT!!! It is purely a pattern i created in my head & an idea that it’s “amazing and euphoric” haha. Just an interesting food for thought if anyone’s thinking of hopping off the wagon x