How do I stop hating my brother and get my mum to love me

I want to be better, I feel resentment towards him. Probably since my mum has always ALWAYS supported and loved him more than me in many ways. I feel so neglected and my mum doesn't care how do I stop feeling this hatred towards them. My mum is insane and abusive she doesn't trust or listen to me. I am 18f, she tells me how im useless and won't be anything in life and that I shldnt go to uni because I won't achieve anything and it will be such a waste of money. Can I even forget all of this pain and try move on.