REASONS WHY I WANNA END BEFORE 16

I have extremely judgemental, controlling, strict, conservative, abusive and Christian parents. My dad constantly guilt tripa me and now I stopped feeling guilt. I am a sa victim. I am a horrible eldest daughter. I am soo lazy and irresponsible. I am too lazy to help my parents with chores and sometimes do it. I never study properly. I waste sm time on my phone. I steal money from my already financially struggling parents to buy things like shampoo, conditioner, skincare stuff, things my parents wouldn't buy for me.As long as my parents are there I wouldnt be able to express in any way I want. My sa experience caused me to be hypersexual from a young age. And now my 6 sister watches those romantic couples videos and make sexual jokes and try touching me and making me kiss her on the lips. My sister ended up the way I did. There is much more stuff why I wanna end it.

I am 16 and my sister is 6.Ever since I can remember I have hit my sister when she does something. Sometimes I hit her a lot, pinch her and intent to hurt when something wrong or just pmo. I used to scream at her a lot when she does something and I get mad. I have seen her be unresponsive when I used to scream and scold her. I really wanna change. Please be considerate and give me solutions to change.