Is it bad that I didn't feel anything the day before my uncles funeral

Hi so yeah this is personal and I have no idea how to talk about it, the day I heard he passed away I cried until I couldn't, I cried twice in different nights about the funeral and having to see him in the casket and going to his home and knowing he wouldn't be there to see me

But the day before, we went to the funeral home and I felt nothing,and I don't know why, I've never had to go to a funeral or deal with a family members passing until now and I don't know what to do, I hate that I feel this way because I don't want people to think I don't care, but I feel numb

Edit: I did cry when I snapped at my dad for trying to pressure me into going to the casket to see my uncle and when he yelled at me for crying, but I stopped after a while and felt numb again