Thots

I clocked shit out of the corner of my eye choose not to respond to it because something don’t need attention to them sitting tight is not my forte. I can honestly say my patience on this has in my own estimates the difficult part I guess what makes it so difficult even if I didn’t wanna sit tight not a whole lot I can do about it. Any damn way at least none that end up in a positive result for me. I could lose my shit, but I can’t tell you how tired I am of the consequences of losing my shit on people. I’m frustrated though and I need someone to talk to about it. Someone who sees I’ve always known what acceptability to be ventilation over the years definitely learned how to recognize it. My faith in God in his love for me is about all that I can count on these days because everything else that is man seriously I’m disenchanted with it. My biggest question I wanna say why did this happen but I know why read I wanna say why did this happen to me but the truth is I’ve said that so many times in my life that I know it’s not about the why it’s what’s the what I’m gonna do about it is this a training ground my next life I’m going to be formidable. Did I sign up for some sole contract have I helped anyone and is this situation responsible for what happened with my oldest who is always my biggest cheerleader if I find out that it was the year Son lost with my grandson there’s no price for that and I feel primal. I didn’t ask for everything that happened to me. I could’ve made better choices on something, but I’m really just trying to work with this world without leaving some sort of horrible Mark or a scar on anyone else unfortunately, I’ve already hurt my children, but I’ve done my best to and more importantly to not do it again I just wish that answers would fall into my lab that were actually answers and not not a fucking real. Does anybody else miss the funny memes on Facebook instead of all these fucking reels love the ones that make me laugh made me think oh well just eternal thoughts. I thought I’d send to the universe.