Lost a SIGNIFICANT amount of weight recently (TW possibly)

I lost a large amount of weight recently and I just want to lose more. I don't look like I've lost any even though people call me thinner. I want to be at my LW again and I feel like a huge fake for not having more ED symptoms to control my weight. I'm just a huge fraud. I have an intake for treatment again soon but part of me just doesn't wanna go. Others deserve help more than me. I'm just too huge idk.