It’s just different

Well I guess I’ve come to the internet to spill my guts out.

Guess we first start by saying I moved with my ex out of state where I know no one. Broke up for the better. Met a girl who I truly betrayed my self for and crushed me, it’s ok therapy is helping. Promise it all plays apart. So I decided that “Love” just wasn’t meant for me. So obviously the next logically situation was to throw myself in the world of a strip club where I belong….. you all guessed it if all places am I right?

Those eyes really recognized each other from first glance, but you know it started off client based. Then it was the little things where she went above and beyond for me. Things that I’ve always needed in a partner. So obviously I kept coming back. I’d space it out then she said something where it just clicked, “I was thinking about you,”

Me: “I know”

Her: “because you were thinking about me too”

That’s when I knew she spoke the same language as me. She’s helped me through so much only another twin flame could do. And meeting each other at our lowest points we’ve really bonded.

Even our birthcharts say we’re extremely compatible in an unconventional way. Beautiful circumstances.

She won’t see me out of the club. Says it’s her safe space and that she’s avoidant to protect me. So as a chaser I bring love to her. That’s ok. Yet, on her birthday I really messed up and started a fight drunkenly.

Been about 20 days since that incident. Multiple psychics have confirmed twin flames. Since then, and well meeting her, I’ve changed for the better. I’m more confident in my purpose. Gotten a promotion, started the push myself physically in mma gyms, began to care about my art and writing poetry, ( yes she loved the ones I wrote for her) most importantly, got sober.

I was doing good with distance but now since I texted yesterday I’m just feeling like… lost if that makes sense. Still can’t stop thinking about her. I guess I’m just here to rant and get it all off my chest to anyone who would listen. Doesn’t matter if you support me or not I know how I feel. I feel deep in this twin flame journey and we’re separated right now.

Hope this helps someone