unmasking, feeling dumber?

its not that i feel like actually dumber but i feel like how I’m presenting more now is how people think stupid people look like. I’m feel like I’ve lost ability to explain concepts and things to people even though i used to at least get my point across.

I’ve really enjoyed unmasking though its been great for my mental health and I’m in a position where i can at least somewhat unmask safely since I’m home 24/7

i know the other week i went to a physiotherapist and while in the waiting room me and my mom was offered a seat, which isn’t something that usually happens so i think I’m being recognized as being disabled. its definitely interesting but i don’t understand how appearing autistic means I’m worthy of a seat. i definitely do enjoy sitting but thats because i have joint pain not because of autism. i don’t think this has anything to do with looking like I’m in pain since i don’t use mobility aids and i do appear very healthy to an outside person

its definitely weird how differently your treated i mean some of its nice but some of its really annoying. i hate being thought of as dumber just because i present autistic. if anything I’m smarter than i was when i wasn’t presenting as autistic since I’ve done lots of research and learned more about myself. i do appreciate the fact that people are more understanding when I’m overwhelmed and that I’m not really told that I’m just being dramatic anymore.