I have no idea what i am doing in life

I have no idea what i am doing. I think i am a little too young to complain about this, but I am 19, and I have no friends. The reason is something i have been trying to figure out for years but i couldn’t. Work is something that i use to distract myself from loneliness, but when things become hard and boring, nothing is there to distract me from loneliness anymore.

I try my best not to ruin my future, but i don’t even know what my future should be. Things that I planned a year ago prior to college now feels ridiculous.

The imagination that years from now, when i look back, and i realize that I still could’t get everything together. That scenario scares me deeply despite the fact that i couldn’t do much at the moment.