I wanna just complain for a second

I'm so frustrated with my doctor.. she started me on testosterone and told me that in one month i could up the dose to the full amount. I'm currently on 50ml and the end goal is 100ml.

EVERYTHING has been going amazing, i've had absolutely no issues.My mental health is a million times better.I'm not having any of the anger issues , people describe, i'm actually at peace for once in my life.

She doesn't have an appointment until after it's already been a month and she wanted to see me before I upped my dose. I contacted her and told her how well everything is going and asked.Since it has been a month if I can up my dose because i'm seeing her in two weeks. She told me to remain on my current dose until I see her.

I just Want to go about my journey as fast as possible.I'm doing it later in life than I wanted to.. and everything is going great. I understand that she probably has to check my hormones, but God, why did she tell me we could make an appointment within the month?And then she couldn't , and now I have to wait to continue my journey like it was supposed to pan out.

I guess I feel a little bit of urgency due to everything going on politically in the USA. I don't know whether I'm going to get this taken away from me.And it's been life changing i've never been more mentally stable.I've always been so mentally ill and this is the first time I feel normal. I don't know what I would do if it got taken from me before I could even get to the point I wanna be at..