Feeling down and defeated

Hello everyone. I need some advice, I don’t know what i should do. I’m starting my 3rd year of teaching in August. For the past two school years, I have felt on the outs with my grade level team. I feel that they have not been helpful to me, have left me out of things like grade level sweatshirts, or have not helped me understand how to do pink and blue cards last year. They switch off teaching different teaching different subjects. I am not comfortable yet as I am still learning and will be starting induction in the fall! I have talked to some of my friends outside of work about it and they have said that it seems that they are purposely leaving me out of things. I have made some mistakes during this school year and last, but I am trying my best to learn from them. As I have talked to my friends about I have cried about it. I feel stuck! Like I want to be apart of the team and work with them, but it seems that I’m left out!

Today, I had a meeting with my mentor teacher and principal for the end of the school year. There are things I can work on and improve on. I’m just frustrated that it seemed that my mentor teacher couldn’t let things go. Like forgetting to do mid of year tests, or showing up late a couple of times and things like that. Also, I was told by my mentor that my classroom was not warm and welcoming. That hurts my feelings because I try so hard to create a welcoming, warm, and positive classroom and to hear that is not helping.

Any suggestions?

Thanks.