Stage fright incident

A few hours ago I sang a solo at an event for people with trauma and MH struggles. luckily free tickets.

People get up and perform music and there are some incredible musicians.

I was to sing a solo but I've been low for days and in the morning I had a trauma trigger and had a cold too. I also find it anxiety provoking because everyone knows I really struggle with trauma and anxiety.

I got up and tanked. I got halfway through the song, and I was shaking so badly I burst into tears and couldn't continue. i felt so ashamed. the backing music was playing on and I just couldn't gather myself. Some women from the audience

got on the stage and hugged me to try and help me continue but I couldn't.

Everyone was lovely but I feel awful. I didn't know what to do, how to leave the stage. it was a 'rabbit in the headlights' thing.

Everyone was lovely but it was horrible. I maybe should have recognised I wasn't well enough. I have sung at these events before and nothing like this happened before where I got so overcome. It was awful.