Not masculine

This will be my last venting for a while but I have been told I not masculine enough because I have emotional regulation issues and am impulsive with money and I struggle to plan and do chores around the house I am not saying all this is not true I just hate how my ADHD lands as not masculine when it's literally a mental illness and being almost 50 doesn't change that it's overwhelming and depressing daily I hate I wake up feeling like this laying down feeling like this ..my whole life feels like a huge failure