Idk who I am?

I really just don’t recognize anything about myself. I always quote things like “I used to be funny” “I’m so unlikable now” as a joke but it isn’t really a joke. Ever since I got raped I feel like I’ve completely changed, I don’t have my own personality or style. I can’t recognize myself at all. Like who even am I? Why does no one like me? And why don’t I have any friends