Going to the er and realizing how alone I am

I'm going to the ER because I'm having problems with my diabetes type 2, and I'm in realization of how alone I truly going to the ER feels like a trip to the Gulag like you're going to jail and getting bad news that your your health is so bad. That you might not survive. Another week makes you feel like when you have no support system, and no friends or families, how alone you truly are when you're sitting there as hours go by, and they make you wait to actually see a doctor and more hours go by and dwindle as they do tests. On you and come back with the bad news that you don't want to hear and then get discharged and go home with the bad news that your health isn't Is tip top shape as you thought it was and realizing that I have nobody to talk to but myself, which is really sad that I don't have the support system. And I've been so long in this world for almost a decade now and realizing nobody cares about me or even gets a d*** if I live another day or breathe another day. I only have a soon to be 16-year-old daughter that even knows that I exist, nobody else even acknowledges that exist. I only have enemies that don't like me know I exist co-workers that don't care about me that existing system that I keep contributing to to make money that I don't want to I don't have a part of anymore and people that do not care about me in the least bit. They're all enemies that don't like me.