Want to get the magic back or stop

I went from 8 pm last night to 4:30 today with nothing! Sometimes I’ll take 1/4-1/2 tsp in the morning I usually seem to be good until i take an afternoon cat nap after work. I always wake up super anxious, I don’t feel that way in the morning when I wake up. I took a 1/2 tsp green then proceeded to get a 75 mit seltzer. The green took the edge off. Didn’t need the seltzer but it’s a bad habit. I went 3 days without one and may a total of 2 tsp power a day at that time. I just want to get rid of that anxiety idk if it’s withdrawal. I have vitamin c and agamatine. I took the agamatine Monday night and Tuesday morning and all it did was exhaust me and then i broke my 3 days on the seltzer. What’s my best plan of action here. I’ve had some major emotional drama and that seltzer Tuesday kept me from drinking alcohol which was my downfall. I’ve been of alcohol 16 months but been on kava and kratom since . I love kava but it messes my tummy up to much. I also have klonopin 0.5 that I take 1/2 of when I really need it. Also have 300 mg gabapentin available. I have a full time job and kids. Just want to do this comfortably and smart