Guilt Towards Family

Hi guys :)

Does anyone else feel an overwhelming sense of familial guilt for being disabled?

I think about the amount of money that was spent on therapy for me. The amount of time, energy.

I think about the emotional strain on my parents to have a child who was developmentally disabled.

I think about my siblings who had to sit in the waiting room of every doctor’s appointment I had. I got so much support that they never got, my parents say.

Even though everyone says “of course your family doesn’t think you’re a burden, they wouldn’t want you to feel guilty,” I can’t help but feel as though I am a burden. Just the way my mom talks about how I got more support than my level one sister did because I required more attention.

I don’t know. I just feel really guilty for putting my family through all of that.

Anyone else ever feel that way?