I know I should be worried, but I’m not

I haven’t had my period for over >!6 months!< now.

I’ve read about the risks: bone health, hormones, long-term effects. I understand it logically. >!But emotionally… it's like I don't care.!<

Part of me even finds it easier not having a period, especially as a swimmer. And I think that’s where it gets complicated, because I know that getting it back would mean I’m healthier, and that’s something I still struggle to fully accept.

It’s like there’s a conflict between what I know is good for me and what part of my mind is comfortable with...

Has anyone else experienced this? How do you deal with that disconnect?