Oh to hug a woman in a shower 🫠

Everyday when I shower I long for my future wife to hug her and hold her tightly, have her scrub my back then she'd tell me how wide and muscular it is and I'd wash her beautiful long hair and tell her how much I love her ☹️

Is it normal to think of this EVERYDAY? I can't even sleep without hugging my pillow, unless I'm really tired.