Loneliness is killing me (F27 )

Hi guys, how are u doing. This is my first time posting in this subreddit. I guess I just need to vent.

Loneliness is really seriously impacting my daily life. I find life to be dull at times, I lack motivation and I procrastinate too much even tho I know I shouldn't... I really want to have a friend, a friend who will always be there for me, care for me, tell me that things will be fine, and comfort me when I am at my lowest (as I will do the same for them).

Is it even possible to find such friendship? I've always found it hard to make friends since I was a kid due to my shy character, and it's even harder now that I am an adult. And the worst thing is, maybe I've gotten used to loneliness, I find myself keeping my distance when I actually do meet people who are nice and friendly to me.