GOING OUTSIDE IS A HUMULIATION RITUAL

I DID MY BEST. GOD KNOWS I DID MY BEST. BUT AS SOON AS I STEPPED BACK INSIDE MY HOUSE MY BODY SHUT DOWN LIKE IT JUST GOT DIAGNOSED WITH EIGHT DIFFERENT DISEASES. im cold shaking faint weak about to puke what the fuck? WHAT THE FUCK HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO INTEGRATE INTO SOCIETY EVER