flatlined

it’s been some odd years of what has seemed like a never ending rollercoaster of emotions and just recently it feels like i got the the end of the coaster but there’s no conductor waiting to let me off no platform to exit even in sight. it’s like i hit one last big hill freighted, excited, nervous, scared and full of adrenaline but when i came down from the loop it’s like it became one of those kiddie rides two small bumps if you will one with regret and the other with confusion and now i’m riding this flat track no nothing, the flatness is making me yearn for those hills even the smaller ones, the track has “flatlined”. i want off this ride- why must it continue with no let off. if i jump off i know i’ll be left with injuries and if i stay on i’ll be bored and yearning for once was i never learn im a junkie for these rides, when i got on the coaster it was warm and sunny now its dark and gloomy. i hadnt realized how long this coaster lasted now im stuck in the storm. i don’t want to ride your emotional roller coaster anymore i wish i never met you.