Astrology is ruining my mental health and my life

Astrology is really messing with my mind. I’ve become obsessed with it, and I feel like I’m going crazy. I never used to believe in astrology, and I’m not a religious person. I’m 20 years old, and for the past two years I haven’t been doing well in life.

Then I got pulled into astrology. I went to an astrologer and was told that my mind isn’t stable and that I have some really bad placements. They said that’s why I’ve been struggling and that I need extremely strong mental discipline to succeed. My mind flutters everywhere, and I can’t really focus. They also told me some good things, but the negative parts were really hard to handle. I cried in front of them.

After that, I started learning more on my own and got deeper into it. I don’t know much about it, but I talk to astrologers on Reddit. I post my chart and ask for interpretations, or I DM commenters to read my chart.

The ones who seem experienced often tell similar things. As I learned more, I became upset, scared, and very sad because I started to feel like even destiny wanted me to fail. I cried a lot. They also told me that I am making my life worse myself, and that it’s my mind creating problems. If I focus, I can move ahead in life and I agree with that.

Some of them are more interested in reading my chart because they claim they can tell my sexual desires and that I have a high libido. They get really creepy. But most of the time, they are the ones who seem the most accurate. One even told me my navel shape, moles on my body, my breast size, and my favorite positions. I felt very uncomfortable, but I am so obsessed with astrology that I ignore it because I just want to understand my chart. Even when they say uncomfortable things, I push the conversation back to my placements and what they mean, asking more about my future and my life.

No matter how much I learn about my chart, I’m never satisfied. I always want to know more. I have a habit where, whenever something goes wrong in my life,like if someone close to me leaves then i go and ask an astrologer why it’s happening.

I have a fear that no one will stay with me forever, and that the people closest to me will eventually leave.

Because of that, I started looking into which astrology signs I get along with and which ones I don’t. I also combine numerology with astrology, which gives me a broader view of people, and sometimes it feels like it works.

But the problem is that my mind feels very unstable. Even if I get along with someone, I sometimes pull away once I find out their sign. I once left someone because of this, and I cried later because I didn’t want to but I thought the future wouldn’t be good. I wish I had never learned about astrology and could have lived a simpler life without complicating things or judging people based on their signs.