is it normal for a 2 to be disorganized attached?

DISCLAIMER, THIS IS JUST MY EXPERIENCE!!!!!

so recently ive been reading into two and i think it fits me well enough, but the issue im having is with the idea of “clinginess”. now my experience might be different than your typical so2: i grew up bullied and constantly puppetted but endured this behavior bc id rather have someone bad than no one. that was high school. as a result, i’ve kinda developed a disorganized attachment style: i need people, but dont always want them. in fact, ive actually celebrated when my friends have cancelled plans i did not have the energy to attend. is this normal behavior for a two?