I’m a pastor with a naughty side

I am a pastor with a high sex drive. my wife does not share the same level of sex drive. so I often find myself watching porn and fantasizing about hooking up with women in the church. I will often watch porn in bed next to my wife as she is sleeping and try to be quiet as to not get caught finishing. I have been able to get away with it many times, sometimes I’ll watch without headphone. I also like to message strangers on here to get off. Even now as I write this, I am supposed to be preparing a sermon for church on Sunday.