Dealing with a Breakup (18TF)

How do y'all deal with a breakup? We've mostly met and been intimate through vrc and I'm honestly fucking craving the feeling again that she gave me. I actually felt like I was with someone who saw me the way I wanted to be seen that shared my interest, managed to break through my shyness and made me feel like in heaven. Dysphoria just adds insult to injury cuz I'm trans and pre OP and only on estrogen for 3 years so I can't really find one night stands with alcohol to drown out the sadness