My mind is blank at this point

So I am neet aspirant and this was my 3rd drop(I'm in Bsc 2nd year ) the first two drops I did not study just chilled with friends and all but this time I studied and I was doing great till Oct then got a disease that took 2 months to recover and I started again and in Feb I got severe infection that took a month to recover and past that I realized everything I had studied has literally been washed off from my brain and I mean it the chapter I opened it felt like I was reading it for the first time after the lung infection I got severe anxiety issues I am still dealing with it taking meds everyday and sleeping pills

The thing is my parents are so tensed for me and even I am they are saying they'll get me to private medical college but I always dreamt of studying in a government medical college and I just feel so guilty and anxious all the time

I live in a joint family and it's very toxic

My mother says the day I get out of this house I'll do good in life

Guys please don't be harsh and help me

Should I take private medical college or beg my parents for another drop

I can't change career path now