Librarian interview - diversity getting to me

I have a lot of experience

And have had a lot of interviews

And I can’t ignore the stats. Every time I’m interviewed by a person of color I get an offer, every time I’m interviewed by a white women..rejected. Librarianship is so racist sometimes and it’s harder to identify because everyone is so well read and can logic themselves out of biases. It’s disheartening bc for me the stats have been undeniable and when I have my post interview reflections I can identify the interviewer mentally disengaging at a certain point now. I just want to give up and I hate interviewing now. It doesn’t help that the interview format is often less than satisfactory imo, compared to other interview styles I’ve had in other industries .

Just needed to rant, I feel distraught because I have so much to offer and do good work. But it feels pointless to even try to be part of libraries at this point. Even in a previous role, staff would periodically tell me (unsolicited) Id be a shoe in for full time librarian roles opening up in the county because they want to diversity hire. And that never happened and yet I’d always hear that. I’d just smile (what else am I supposed to do) and mentally be like yeah that’s bs. Just a lot of annoying things.

I won’t be surprised if this post is deemed invalid based on my experience with this in librarianship honestly💔