Circumcision Grief

Hello there!

I’ve been restoring for about a month consistently. I started at CI-1. In that month, I have been using tape, and a shirt stay, manual methods, and a P-Tainer for retaining. I also have an frT Beldo but it is a little too tight for me.

I wanted to share that and also something that has been on my mind for awhile.

Years ago, I wasn’t too concerned with my penis, I got laid enough, was even told it was a nice one, but I still felt like I was missing something.

In the interim between then and now, I had fathered a young boy. When he was born, the nurse came in and asked if we wanted him circumcised. I initially said no, but my ex wife had said yes. The MIL interjected and said, “Get it done now, my father had to get his a few years ago and it was awful.”

Something in that moment changed, I snapped and said, “Well then let him make that choice.”

I ended up giving in and letting him get cut.

I had buried that moment deep down.

Without restoration, I have felt that guilt and shame and carried it with me. But seeing myself progress through this journey, it has helped relieve me of those negative emotions.

Thanks for reading, I hope it gives you insight or motivation on your journey.