What is this feeling?

I’m feeling kind of confused and wanted to see if anyone else has experienced this.

I’ve been watching porn since I was around 14, and now I’m 18. You’d think that would make me see everything in a sexual way, but it hasn’t worked like that in this situation.

There’s this girl I genuinely love, and I don’t even think about her sexually at all. Not because I’m forcing it or avoiding it, it just doesn’t happen. I just want to be around her, talk to her, and enjoy her presence. It feels completely different from how I normally feel.