My (20 F) boyfriend (26 M) calls me things like “awful” and “selfish” and i’m starting to get really depressed

I’ve been in a relationship with my current boyfriend for about 5 months now, and things just seem to not be getting better. We have been fighting essentially every single day since the relationship started, and it’s gotten so bad I’ve had to go on an SSRI.

We originally started fighting because he thought I craved male attention and validation from his friends and professors and coworkers, which I don’t think I do. He would get upset when he thought I would say antagonizing things in public settings and I never treated him as my boyfriend when we were in public, but no matter how much I would defend myself, he would just blow up and we would fight about it until I cried. He would be very sweet after I would get to the point of sobbing.

He also would freak out at the beginning of the relationship over little things like me not having his work uniform in the dryer in time before work, but he was on a new medication he was taking twice the prescribed dose of, and has attributed much of his behavior at the beginning to that.

I’ve told my friends about the relationship, and they all seem very worried about me. They all hate him, which has made things even worse because now he knows they all hate him, and he gets so upset at me that “i’ve displayed our intimate and private relationship to everyone and the don’t know all the details and how sweet he is to me”. I was so nice and sweet at the beginning of this relationship, but now i feel so anxious and defensive constantly, and it seems I can never say or do the right thing because I inevitably trigger him and we start fighting.

It’s gotten so bad we’re fighting almost 3 times a day, and I cry every day now. I’ve tried breaking up with him multiple times, but we always get back together and he says that instead of trying to fix things, I’m just giving up on the relationship.

He says I don’t love him and I act like I hate him. He calls be horrible, awful, hollow, selfish, and I’m just like everyone else who hates him.

I love him so much, but I know he’s bad for me. I don’t have fun anymore, I feel miserable, I’m failing classes, my friends say I look like the life has been sucked out of me.

How can I fix this relationship?