Manifestation and negative energy.

So this is kind of loaded, but what I’m really hoping for is someone to help me get over my fear or give me some good coping mechanisms to get rid of limiting beliefs. I posted about this weird phobia of mine previously and the comments weren’t particularly helpful so I’m trying again.

For context, a while back a friend of mine (who is religious) said to me that manifestation is dangerous because when you write something down in a book like that, anything can get a hold of it. negative energies, demons, etc. she explained to me that prayer is safe because you’re sending your intentions and your wishes directly to God, Which doesn’t allow any negative energies to touch it.

whilst I don’t exactly have the same beliefs as her, I am superstitious, so this did scare me a lot. Recently, I found a really old manifestation book of mine where I basically just wrote affirmations over and over again and the thing that scared was that all of the manifestations in this book not only did not come true, but went really badly.

so then I remembered again what she said, and it made me think that maybe something negative really had gotten a hold of my notebook/manifestations. Or I had some sort of negative energy or blockage stuck to me that was causing my manifestations to backfire.

I really want to begin manifesting again and bringing abundance into my life but I now have this weird phobia that my book is cursed or that I am cursed and that I can’t write down my manifestations or else they’ll go super badly.

I need some coping mechanisms for this like is there a way I can protect my book of putprotection of myself or cleanse the energy to ensure that nothing bad happens?

even though I know some people are gonna say that nothing bad happened and nothing bad is attached to me. I just wanna be extra safe and find a way to comfort Myself if that makes sense.