Back at it after 7 month break

Hi guys

I stopped smoking any THC for 7 months (since September). I thought I would gain crazy focus or better control of my impulses. What I realized is that it was not the weed stopping me from improving my attention span or focus, but that being high stopped me from even realizing where my procrastination stemmed from.

After 7 months, I decided to smoke on a Saturday after dealing with a headache for over 24 hours. It was amazing. I had the tiniest hit out of the tiniest pipe possible—and that was all I needed. My headache got so much better, but I also started feeling emotions I had even forgotten existed. Feelings of peaceful love and calmness. At some point, anxiety began to creep in. Thankfully, I was able to recognize it and stay in the present moment.

It's been 2 weeks since, and I have smoked maybe 2 hits per day on Saturdays and Sundays, exclusively in the evenings. I plan on staying this way for the foreseeable future. It does wonders for stress, and I feel it works amazingly as a reward after a long week of work.

I wanted to stop smoking because I was upset that I didn't have control over my use of cannabis. After not using it for 7 months, I realize that I can always choose to be in control. Now it's become like having an occasional beer.

I hope this motivates anyone to have a healthier relationship with cannabis. It is such a gentle plant. I can't believe I abused it for so long.

I'll try to report back in a year to see if I was able to stick to only weekends.