M22 , been a loser all my life

Hey everyone , I feel like I am a waste , a burden in this world, been isolated myself for a very long time, right now I have no skills , no confidence ,no conversation skills , no management skills , I want to start a business which I'm avoiding because I'm doing BTech in CSE , not doing good here , been in my comfort zone for very long time.

I hate myself for the situation I faced , been humiliated in college for not standing up for myself, i always think like yeah nothing matters , every efforts blaah blaah blaah. , i think I'm a narcissist and always in a main character energy (aaj tak kuch ukhada nhi hai life main ) im constantly in main character energy is it because I'm lonely or because I'm lonely that's why im in main character energy type ,

I don't understand the world, have no friends , it seems like every part of my life is falling apart, no academic, no sports , no skills , wasting my life on a 7 inch screen and lying in bed forever,

I feel like if I do something, people will talk about me, I heard many of them talking about me (always shit talking about me) i think they're right , GUYS I AM COMPLETELY LOST IN THIS WORLD, DONT KNOW WHERE MY SHIP IS GOING, i do have dreams to chase but no motivation , just exhausted from everything, brunt out from everything, i feel a hollow in my heart , i don't want to get hurt again. , i don't want to live again the same way. , i want something different a different perspective of life , IF ANY OF YOU GUYS READING THIS PLEASE SHARE SOME REAL TALKS THE PROVEN ONES ,

I have no mentor in my life, when sometimes I share my feelings i feel like I'm a (big talk , no action type guy) I'm getting mad at me everytime when I'm room alone, i don't goon , i just regret my past , always in guilt and seriously I can't get out of it. , I feel tired all day , drained from energy, I feel like I might break down anytime

If anyone reading this please, please give me some genuine answer, someone to connect with me and I promise I'll give you result in next 3 months and major update in 6 months , i promise