I want to stop

I am so scared. I have ruined my reputation more than it already was. I feel dead. I used to be addicted to hard drugs and was clean for three years but now I have really bad alcohol problems.

My therapist dropped me, my apartment complex is kicking me out. I have money no friends no anything. I feel so used and abused by my own self.

I feel so stupid and I don’t know what to do