does this exist? is it a genre?? +reccomendation for rock and stuff

i liek when the voice is gentle and soft but then there are lots of cool drums and guitar like RAAAHHHHH but then i find stuff like that and the vocals are just.... kinda mid like

Ẃ̸͓̠͉̤͚̳͖̟̟̅͠A̶̯̻̓̑̆̊̉̄̕͝W̵̢̱̞͈̊̄̊A̸̟͇͓̩͔̭͕̖͊̎̄͒̊̚͝ͅẀ̴̢̘͓̈͛͑̈́͛͘͘Ȃ̴̦̣̝̒̉̆͘̚A̷̻͚͗͛̃͑̃̆͌̕͝Á̷̤̜̗̟̦̬̲̼̀A̸̬̝͖͂̔͜͝Ä̷̢̮̐Á̵̢̫̘̄͋̀́́̕Ü̷͖̙̥̊̓̓̈́̋̆̓̉͘R̶͓͔̹̤̓͐̊͜G̶̨̣̝̖̹̥̐͑Ĝ̵̢̝̯̺͓́́̕̚̚ͅH̵̗̪͕͚̹̪͔̓͜H̵͉͎̟͍̦͉̣̼̱͌̋̈̃͐̈͝H̴̨̞̮̰͇̲̘͖̐͊́H̴͈̺̫̹̞͈̰̣͇̔͜Ḩ̷̛̜̖̤̖̈́͝,̵̳̗̊̒̄̒̑̓͝,̵͓̝̜̮̲̤̮̜͎͛͛͋͝,̶̘̖̃͘,̶͚͎̳̯͉̬͑̀̆̈́͊̌ ̵̣̈̈́W̵̡̰̮̘̝͚̱̺̤̦͊̌̍A̶̫̘̬͙̘̬̺̱͓̩̐Ẃ̶̢̱̤̬͑̽͋̔A̷̝̳̭̙͖͍̰̝͖̣͗͗͆̽́̋͌͠͝͝W̵̟͉̤̣̫̮͕̞̏̂̈́͘̚Ḁ̴͙̩̒̒̓̒̽̔̆̂͠U̵̧̖̗̬̝͕̖͔̗̭̓͑͋̏̅̈́̂̏U̷͖͇̐̓͑́̽Ǔ̸̌̂̌͠ͅR̷̨̮̬͔͈̘̹͍̜͍̈́̓͒͛G̵̡̮͖̤̬͂͌̿̊̅̅̾̑̇͘G̷̛̙͙̲̜̰̭̩͔̣̗̑̈́̉̄͝H̸̟͐̾̉̉̏̃͘H̴̪͙̭͕͇̣̜̥͖̀̐̈̊͘H̵͉̰̮́̈́̿!̷̯͐̾̐͘͠!̷̨̩̯͖̺̫͖͓͇̹̑̍̔͒̚͘!̵̟͔̠̘͉͕͍̿̑ͅͅ!̵̧̢̲̩̮̜͕̹̍̂͋

no that is not what i want, i want lAlaaalaalaLaaaa and stuff. y know?? i have been trying to find stuff, it's all "shoegaze","shitgaze","shitshoe" or hwatever. "post-apocolypse metal" and rock... just heavy metal with nice voice. i wanna write music like this but i have never heard anything like this because the radios here are limited and internet radio doesn't work. i try to write, but it never works... plz gelp me find,,,

THANK YOU!! :3
i'm a bit confused about the rules on posting here... i hope it's not removed... ;p