not a year without it

I don't know why, but I decided to self-harm a small patch of skin right now. In a month, it would have been exactly a year since I stopped doing this. I promised so many people I wouldn't do it, and I myself thought I didn't need it. But now I've become so terribly interested in trying it on my body. It doesn't feel like before, but I don't think it's irreversible. I feel like I'm falling back into the hole I spent so long crawling out of. I'm simply already adapted to this hole.