I gave her everything… so why do I still feel like I wasn’t enough?

Hey… I’m a 20M university student.

I never really cared about relationships before, until I met a girl by coincidence. We started talking, and slowly I fell for her personality. I confessed my feelings, but she told me she wasn’t ready for a relationship because of her past.

I respected that. Still, I stayed by her side. I supported her when she was struggling, helped her when someone was bothering her, and treated her with all the care I had in me.

I’m a very romantic person… I used to bring her flowers, write her poems, and do everything I could to make her feel special.

At some point, I found out she was talking badly about me and even interested in another guy. I confronted her, she denied it at first, then apologized and asked for another chance… and I couldn’t say no.

Things were good again for a month. Then I went through some personal struggles and got angry a few times… not proud of it.

The next day, she left me.

It’s been a month now… and I’m still hurting so much. I cry, I think about her all the time.

What hurts the most is this feeling:

what if I never find someone who truly loves me for who I am?

I gave her everything I had… and it still wasn’t enough.

I don’t know how to move on.